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This document is for the sole purpose of helping to give understanding and knowledge to those who are seeking help on the subject of same-gender attraction. This topic causes great confusion because there are so many different viewpoints concerning it.
This is information that has been shown to me by the spirit of the Lord. I hope that it might find its way to those who are earnestly seeking answers regarding this issue.
This is my declaration and testimony.
Throughout my life, I used to always hear that same-gender attraction was something that we were just born with, that there isn’t a choice. It was just the way the cards fell. Like picking a piece of chocolate out of a box, and not knowing what flavor you might find inside until you bite into it.
Even various life coaches, psychologists, and behavioral sciences all had their own views of what to do and why it existed. I had friends who had gone through what they called “conversion therapy,” which was a very painful process where they would put electrodes on the brain to shock it so that certain functions or chemicals would start to work properly balancing chemicals in the brain and thus change behavior.
Nothing seemed to work. All these voices kept expressing that there was no hope for anything to change, but in my heart, I always believed that something did exist that could change things, but that we just hadn’t discovered it yet. I always believed in hope…
Just because something hasn’t been discovered yet, doesn’t mean that a way doesn’t exist.
I used to periodically talk with the lord about understanding what all this was in prayer, I would express my conviction that I did not believe that I was stuck or born to forever be this way and that I didn’t understand it.
Time would go by… and I would again say another prayer… never quitting and never giving in to the popular view that I was born this way and just accept it.
I have always tried to stay close to God no matter what my circumstances were when others had abandoned Him altogether. It took many years but the Lord eventually heard me and I received a series of visions…
In my vision, God explained that same-gender attraction was a spiritual issue and not something physical in nature. He showed me that everyone was looking to cure a spiritual problem, using a physical approach. Which will do nothing as we were all looking in the wrong direction and using the wrong method.
He told me that the answer I was looking for was to come unto Christ. There is no other way. Jesus has the power to fix everything but we must first come to Him so He can do it.
Now I didn’t disbelieve, but sometimes we get a little bit of doubt in our heads, and I found myself asking the question; “Is anything too hard for the Lord?” Jeremiah 23:27. The answer was a resounding NO! And so, to this, I said, “Lord help thou mine unbelief.”
Through everything that I was given, I found out, that contrary to the popular thinking of many, there was a way out of this mist of darkness, and that I could remain out permanently, but I must do it through Christ, and that I had to choose to do so. God honors our agency. We can choose to not be saved…
In the first of the two visions that I received…. God showed me that many of our struggles and trials come because of evil spirits that have attached themselves to us. I was shown two specific circumstances in which they attach themselves.
First, they constantly prompt us to do bad things. These devils or evil spirits hang out with us 24/7. They stand next to us, and some would even sit on our shoulders or hang off our backs like a back would that we carry around.
They influence our thinking by literally talking to us. I would hear their voice in my mind as if it were my thoughts talking to me. Many times, I even believed I was hearing my own “self-talk” that went on in my brain … but it was not originating from me. This is how they deceive us.
An example of this would be getting the idea to call someone a horrible name pop into your head encouraging you to say it just to be mean. I would appear as if it were your own “self-talk.” Except that it would be from the devil sitting next to us, that we can’t see enticing us to do something harmful to someone else. And the more we listen to it, the more influence they gain over us. Over time it becomes easier for us to do it again the next time.
In my vision, I was walking down a busy street in a very large city that reminded me of something that looked like downtown Chicago or Los Angeles. I watched people going about their normal day. Many were crossing the street at the crosswalks, and others were simply going about pursuing their normal activities, there were hundreds of people.
Then my eyes were opened and I saw that each one of them was walking next to a devil, but that they couldn’t see them. There were evil spirits around them. I did not see anyone who didn’t have some sort of evil spirit trying to influence them. These evil spirits were walking right next to their assigned person. Some people had more than one devil with them.
In each situation, these dark spirits or devils were doing their best to influence those with whom they were with. I will share two examples of the many that I saw.
I saw a younger kid that was riding on a skateboard. His devil was sitting off his shoulders with his hands wrapped around this kid, putting ideas into his head of ways to get into mischief.
I saw a very well-dressed businessman carrying around a black briefcase. His devil was sitting on the briefcase giving him ideas of how he could swindle his clients out of their money. This devil kept coming back around putting these thoughts into the man’s head until the man began to dwell on all the money he could get, and began thinking of it on his own.
There were many, many other examples that I saw. I saw devils everywhere. Each person had some kind of devil working to exhort their influence over the person that they were with.
God continued to show me these examples so that I could see what was happening in real-time.
Then we went deeper…
God showed me that some of the people had devils attached to their bodies as if they were part of the body. It was as if they were halfway inside it. I could see the person, but their devil was mostly inside of their body not hanging out on the outside like all the others that I saw. These devils had gained access to be inside the person.
Because these devils were inside of the person that they were with, not only could they place thoughts into the person’s head, but they could place emotions upon them also. This gave the devils even greater power over their host victims. The emotions that these evil spirits were feeling, were also felt by their host as if it were their own feelings and emotions.
Thus if the devil was depressed, the host would feel depressed. If the devil felt hate, then the host felt hate. If the devil was lustful for fame or riches, then the host would feel lustful after fame and riches. If the devil had an infirmity, then the host person would start to manifest the same infirmity. If the devil lusted after men or women, then the host would lust after men or women.
These devils being inside of them, could also push their emotional feelings upon their hosts.
It was like two spirits were sharing one body, so both could feel each other’s desires. Feelings of lust, feelings of wanting power, feelings of anger towards people, etc. All of this was felt by the host victim.
And I woke up…. There were so many things going on through my brain…
At that moment, I understood something for the first time in my life. First, that my attraction for the same gender was not genuinely mine. Second, I knew that I had an evil spirit with me, that they were probably permanently attached, and living within my body, and that I was feeling their desires and lust for other men.
I immediately began to ask the Lord for more information regarding my status… and my question to God was, if others had devils attached to them, then how many evil spirits (devils) did I have attached to me?”
I fasted and I prayed. I fasted and I prayed. Fasting adds torque to prayer.
Let’s talk briefly about fasting here:
Fasting helps to bridge the gap between both the spiritual and physical worlds. It’s a spiritual discipline. When exercised properly, it creates an opening through the spiritual covering of the earth that allows the power of heaven to pour down more freely. Like opening the blind so more light can shine in.
Fasting with a pure heart, with the intent of seeking God, allows Him to partner directly with us, giving our prayers greater power and authority to break spiritual barriers. It speeds up what would under normal conditions take months and even years to overcome.
Fasting can push back the forces of darkness out of entire regions or areas and even change events.
Some spiritual battles cannot be won through prayer alone and must include fasting.
In the New Testament, the disciples asked the Lord why they couldn’t cast out a certain type of devil. (Mark 9:28) To this the Lord replied, that certain types of devils only come out, by much prayer and fasting.
When whole congregations can fast together, as one in mind and purpose, with real intent, brings even greater power that can shift the atmosphere over entire cities, regions, and even nations.
Fasting when it is done in humility, with a desire to seek God, and being repentant brings a powerful dynamic into play.
Noah Fasted
Moses Fasted
Daniel Fasted
Jesus Fasted
We must ask ourselves why is fasting talked about so much in the scriptures and yet we don’t utilize it nor understand it.
We need to bring back that “Biblical” style of fasting. When we fast, our spirit undergoes a type of spiritual upgrade, which creates new pathways inside us to operate in “greater discernment and greater authority” under the name of Jesus.
Fasting is not about convincing God to do something, it’s about positioning ourselves where we partner up with God, tuning into heaven’s frequency, and this adds greater spiritual power to our armor, giving us greater accuracy and greater power to hit our targets harder.
Each day we fast will increase our authority over spiritual warfare. It moves us up in the ranks of spiritual power and our words spoken in Jesus’ name carry more weight and have a greater impact and a stronger punch.
God grants the authority because it is his to give. It positions us to carry this greater authority but the authority itself comes from Jesus.
Fasting breaks and weakens all the dark chains in the spiritual realm. Addictions, Generational curses, Spiritual oppression including same-gender attraction. When we exercise our faith in fasting with a pure motive and intent, these chains are broken.
When we exercise a lifetime by fasting oft, we build up great reserves of authority in heaven that we can draw upon at any time to strengthen us in times of trial.
Fasting perfects Worship. It makes us more pleasing to God.
And for many of the hard battles that are coming in the last days, fasting will not be optional. 1◆
Continuing with this post… Several weeks went by.
My desire was not only to know how these devils got attached to me but to learn how to get them out of me also. And since they were literally a part of me, I could feel their feelings as well as my own, essentially, we were sharing a body together.
There were many people with devils in Jesus’ time, it seemed as if it was a common occurrence. We have so many scripture references of Him casting them out.
Today is just like the times of old. People don’t want to acknowledge that it’s possible to be possessed by a devil but it is probably more common than we realize.
Putting forth faith and courage, I sought the Lord diligently through both prayer and fasting, for Him to help me. He has all the power to heal and restore. For it is given unto Him to set at liberty those who are bruised. Luke 4:18.
Same-gender attraction deals with devil(s) that hold great power over those that they are attached to. Same-gender attraction isn’t a people issue, it’s a devil issue. (Eph. 6:12, For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world…)
After many weeks, the Lord showed me another vision…
Second Vision:
I saw myself as if I were looking from a third-party perspective. I saw my (spirit) self, and I was inside this beautiful little house (which I was told represented my physical body.) It had a very high-pitched ceiling at it’s center and a lot of beautiful windows across the front that let in a lot of light.
As I began to look around at my surroundings, I noticed 4 other dark spirits living with me in my house. Two of them were so big and tall that they nearly reached the top of the pitched ceiling. I was told that their height was a representation of the great influence that they on me. They were the ringleaders. The two that seemed to control everything.
The other two were more like mischief makers and they were subservient to the two taller ones with the greater influence.
My question was, how many devils did I have. The Lord was showing me firsthand, that I had 4 devils (dark spirits) with me.
Let’s just say, that the size and magnitude of what I saw terrified me and I freaked out. Who were these strangers? What were they doing here?
I immediately sought to hide wherever I could, and not finding a place, I decided that I wanted out, and I began looking for the front door or a window where I could exit.
At that moment I had forgotten that I was looking for an exit from my own body, but that didn’t matter, I wasn’t going to stay in it with all these strangers that I did not know trying to control me!
Then I saw Jesus. He was wearing a white robe with a red sash. As He came forward, He lifted his arm and waved it from the right to the left.
Instantly, I was inside my house and all the devils were now outside. All the fear and fright was gone. Jesus said, “Lock your doors and windows,” which I promptly did.
No sooner had I done so when I saw a head pop up in front of my window with a look of “What just happened?” Then I heard a knock at my door. Looking through the peephole, there they all were, all four devils. And they said, “We want to come back in. Open the door so we can get back in?”
This question surprised me. The gall of those devils that were just cast out had the nerve to come right back literally within seconds and ask that I let them back in! I hadn’t even had time to breathe yet, and here they were determined to get back in.
I said to them, “No, I am not letting you back in. You have no authority over my house, and I am not letting you in.” To this, they appeared perplexed, and then they were gone. I felt relieved…
Jesus said to me, “They will be back in three days.” I replied in confidence, “OK.” And I laid back down and fell asleep. From that moment, I began to count the days on my calendar knowing that they would be back in three days…
On the third night, I remember thinking before going to bed, “ok, this is the third night.” Still, with no fear, I slept.
Sometime in the wee hours of the morning, I was awakened by two devils, and this time I could see human-like features that I couldn’t see before. I could see that they were both male. They descended upon me with such force that they pushed me deep into my mattress. I could read their thoughts and they intended to force their way back into my body.
I felt like I was wrestling with them in a wrestling match, two-on-one. I saw and felt arms and legs as we wrestled. I did everything that I could to push them off from me and knowing their thoughts, I again uttered, “I am not letting you in! This is my body, not yours and you don’t have my permission to enter.”
After some time, being unsuccessful, they left me and I fell back asleep. These two were the smaller of the 4.
Shortly after I had fallen asleep, I was again awakened, but this time all four of them were present surrounding my bed, waking up, my spirit sat up in my bed while my body lay flat. My spirit legs were still in my physical body but my upper spirit was sitting up out of my body.
At this point, they all scattered around my room. One of them, whom I call the ring leader, just sat on my office chair at the desk that was next to my bed. She was female. I could see her as clear as day, and can still describe her perfectly. Her hair was shoulder-length and well-kept. She was a brunette. She wore what I would consider a professional business suit that would be worn by a CEO or corporate president. She was arrogant, haughty, and defiant.
Still thinking that I couldn’t see her she said nothing but looked at me with a smirk on her face.
I took the lead, I said to her, “You know that I can see you.” She remained silent. So, I again repeated myself, “You know that I can see you,” and I looked right in her face. I think she realized that she wasn’t invisible anymore, so to my comment, she replied in a snotty voice, “Oh really?” with a slight cock to her head.
Being in the spirit, I could read her thoughts, so she didn’t need to say anything to me. I simply answered her because I knew her intent and I said, “I know that you want to get back into my body. This is my body, and ‘You do not’ (I emphasized) have permission to come back in.” I was very specific with my words.
Since Jesus had cast them all out, and put me back in control, I had the final say because this was my personal property that God had given me, not theirs. They could not come back in without my permission and I wasn’t giving it.
She sat back in the chair and looked at me. I knew that she wanted to control me again, we both knew it. Before she could answer, I again repeated, “That she did not have my permission to come back in,” and there was nothing she could do about it. She knew it and so did I.
When I think back on this experience, I find that I was not scared anymore for I knew who they were and I knew what they wanted, and I also knew that I had the final say, not them, and if they were to get back into my body it would only be by my consent. They were powerless to just enter.
To this, the last of my 4 devils popped up and stood behind the brunette. She too was a female spirit and I could see that she had long hair that ran down her shoulder and off her back. She was blond, but I couldn’t see her facial features as she wouldn’t let me see her. She remained standing behind the brunette, hiding if it were.
She was the clever one, the one who knew how to negotiate. She wasn’t so haughty and stuck up as the brunette had been, but she was very skilled in negotiations.
She said to me, “What do you want from us so that we can in return re-enter?” I found this question very curious. She was very straightforward in her asking. What do you want from “US” was her question.
I answered back, that I didn’t want anything from her or anything from them as a whole, as they had nothing of value that they could offer me.
Then came the most interesting response that I would have never guessed. She said to me, “Do you want women? ‘Because we could supply you’ with all the women that you could possible want.” I again said “no,” that I wasn’t interested in that kind of woman.
She continued… “What do you want from us then? Do you want ‘Fame?’ Because we could make you extremely famous.” I said nothing back.
She continued… “Do you want money? Because ‘We’ could get you all the money you could ever want.” She was referring to billions.
After the third offer, I again said, “no,” and I explained that everything that she had to offer me was earthly, and would only last until my life on earth was over,” I said that ‘I wanted things that were eternal which would last for eternity’, and that wasn’t something that they could offer me, that only God could give it.
At that point, the conversation ended. The blond female began to cover them with a shrouding mist so that I could no longer see them and they were gone. I felt like the blond one was a witch.
This experience brought up a lot of answers to a lot of questions. If satan was thrown down from heaven and if a third of the souls went with him, it is only obvious that we were both male and female before we were born on the earth. These evil spirits (devils now) were not allowed a physical body, but they were still male and female, for I saw it. Giving truth, that we are already male and female before we are born, dismantles the trans-gender theory.
And since they were willing to offer me money or fame and lots of concubines of women, it makes me wonder if other musicians/actors/billionaires are offered the same in exchange for devils to possess their bodies because we already know that “the money” is satans wheelhouse.
(About 4 years later while I was working as an assistant manager at a retail store, I had a young guy come up to me out of the blue that I did not know, who asked me if I could sing. I thought that it was an odd question to ask a stranger, but I said that I could but needed some practice. He said that wasn’t a problem and that they were forming a new band and wanted to know if I was interested in being a part of it. Immediately my mind went back to when the blond devil asked me if I wanted “fame.” Quickly I replied that I was not interested to which he seemed disappointed, but went his way.)
There was a lot more that happened in this live experience, but I will not post it here. I am sharing as much as I feel that I can.
I learned that when being possessed by other evil spirits, I could feel the desires, lusts, and feelings of the devil spirit as if they were my own and if they lusted for men, then that is why I felt attraction for men also.
It would be the same for women.
And since the devils do not have bodies of flesh and blood, the only way they can experience the power of pleasure that comes from having sex is to feel it through other people’s bodies that they were living in. They want to share in that feeling and pleasure. It’s something that they desperately want, and can never have because they were cast down from heaven to never receive a physical body of their own. They live vicariously through us.
I also learned that by not following God, but instead doing all the evil things that these devils were enticing us to do, it opened us up so that they could come inside us. Essentially, we open up our front door and invite them into our bodies by not living right, because we are listening to the enticings of devils instead of listening to the spirit of God.
It’s like the punishment for disobeying God is that we open ourselves up to get a devil (or evil spirit) attached to us. And if we would only follow God, the devils would have no power or influence over us, being locked out permanently from living within us and possessing us.
We own the birthright to our own house (our bodies) through Jesus, but if we follow the evil one, then we are consenting to have them as our master and they come in and take control.
Parents who are living dark lives bring those spirits into their homes, where they can affect the children. Even neighbors who might be practicing witchcraft could put dark magic on our kids. It is so essential that we apply the blood of Jesus on our homes and families for protection. (See the Post: The Blood of Jesus)
One thing that I want to mention here is that when all my devils were cast out, my feelings for other men were also practically gone. But if I thought about it hard enough, I could bring back old left-over feelings from those thoughts and so I began to occupy my mind with the things of God instead of the things of the world.
It was up to me to stay on the narrow path that Jesus had set me back on and to repent and not look back.
We must overcome the natural man and become born again through Christ. All things that entice us to do good are from God and all things that entice us to do evil are from the devil. It is this simple. We need to stop, look at what we hear in our minds, and discern where it is coming from.
The more that we follow after the devil, the more we will become like the devil, full of mischief, evil, carnal, sensual, and devilish.
The more we follow after Christ and do the things of Christ, the more we will become like Christ; kind, loving, full of patience, charity, and hope.
We become like the master with whom we serve.
Jesus Christ is the son of God. He will come and take away our stain, that our garments will be made white, that we are not cast off at the last day. Christ is the truth, the light, and the way, and no man cometh unto the Father but by Him.
God shows us the way and gives us understanding. He has shown me many things in this life and he has shown me many things in the life to come, and I give you my testimony and witness that these things are true.
Same-gender attraction isn’t a people issue, it’s a devil issue and the Lord had to open up my eyes so that I could see it firsthand to understand it plainly.
The sweet words from the song “Amazing Grace”, come to mind. “I once was lost, but now am found; was blind, but now I see.” ◆
1 Notes were taken on fasting from Nicole Hundson NDE