Addictions, and how do we deal with them? This topic is difficult because there are so many different viewpoints concerning it.
Various life coaches, psychologists, and behavioral scientists all have their views of what to do and why addictions exist. Some claim that it’s due to unbalanced chemicals in the brain. Others talk about how it is natural and just comes with us as we are born. I had friends who had gone through what is called “conversion therapy,” which is a very painful process where electrodes are placed on the brain to shock it, hoping that certain functions or chemicals would start to work properly, to change our behavior.
While there might be some scientific truth to this, the real problem is more spiritual than physical. And if we could truly see what it is, we could change things.
The information that I will share here has been shown to me by the spirit of the Lord. I hope that it might find its way to those who are earnestly seeking answers to all types of addiction.
When I was younger, I had a serious addiction that I didn’t understand. I used to periodically talk with the lord about understanding what all this was in prayer. I would express my conviction that I did not believe that I was stuck in an addiction forever, and that just because I did not understand it, I had faith in believing that God did, as he knows all things and comprehends all things.
Time would go by… and I would again say more prayers… I was asking for understanding and help with my addictions. Never quitting and never giving in to the popular view that we were just born this way and that I couldn’t do anything about it. I just didn’t believe that viewpoint.
I have always tried to stay close to God, no matter what my circumstances were, when so many others had abandoned Him altogether. It took many years asking in prayer, but the Lord eventually heard me and I received a series of visions… This is my experience.
In my vision, God explained that addiction to anything was really a spiritual issue. Yes, there were physical things involved, but the core of it was spiritual rather than physical by nature. He showed me that everyone was looking to cure a spiritual problem, using a physical approach. I still find this to be true today. We work hard on the outside, trying to fix a habit through sheer will and determination, and if it works for a while, but never solves the issue, we find it returning sometimes with an even greater ferocity.
My experience was that while tackling addictions on a physical level might help for a while, in the long term, it will do very little, as we were focusing on the wrong direction and using the wrong method.
God told me that the solution to what I was looking for was to come back to Christ. Because Jesus, through the power of the atonement, had earned the ability from God to fix everything, and I mean everything, but we must first come to Him so that He can fix it. And that his atonement did cover anything and everything. His power can eliminate and even take away “our stain” as it is written in the scripture.
Now I do believe that God can do anything, but sometimes we get a little bit of doubt in our heads, and I found myself asking this question, “Is anything too hard for the Lord?” Jeremiah 23:27. The answer was a resounding NO! And I knew that already. And so, to this, I said, “Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.” With Love he acepted my call for help…
God then proceeded to show me that, contrary to the popular thinking of many, there is a way out from any addiction and that I could remain out permanently, but I must do it through Christ, and that I had to choose to remain out because God honors our agency. We can choose not to be saved… and if I wanted to choose to stay addicted, then God would let me choose to stay that way, it was my choice. That in the end, I would suffer all the consequences that would come with it. God never forces anything on anyone until the judgment day. Then it is too late.
God then gave me a series of two visions. In the first vision that I received…. God showed me that nearly all of our struggles and trials come because of evil spirits that have attached themselves to us. While attached, they influence us around the clock, 24/7. We need to be aware of this and cast them away from us daily, sometimes even hourly. Their job is to influence us by talking into our minds through our thinking. These are ideas that pop into our minds as thoughts, and most of the time we don’t recognise that the thought isn’t ours, but theirs. The more that we listen to them, the more influence they gain over us. It’s like a crab being heated up in a pot, and the water keeps getting hotter, and we don’t recognize it until we are cooked.
I was shown several examples of how they work on all men. Over time, as they grow stronger, they begin to attach themselves to us in a more permanent sort of way, and it becomes harder to get them off.
First, their main objective is to constantly prompt us to do bad things. In this paper, I will call all these unseen dark spirits devils. They are evil spirits that do everything they can to hang out with us 24/7. We can’t see them, but they are always standing nearby, looking for an opportunity to gain influence over us. In fact, the devil has assigned certain dark spirits to all of us, and their purpose is to gain control over us.
They stand next to us, they walk with us, they follow us around, and even some of them will sit on our shoulders or hang off our backs like a backpack that we would carry around. And they stay with us because we don’t see them or understand that we can and should be casting them out. The closer we stay to Jesus, the harder it is for them to do anything. But we are so caught up in the things of this world that we don’t pray enough, we aren’t sticking close to God enough, and we aren’t paying close enough attention to our ‘self-talk’ to determine if it’s really us speaking to ourselves…
They influence our thinking by literally talking to us. I would hear their voice in my mind as if it were my self-talk talking back to me. Many times, I even believed I was hearing my own “self-talk” in my brain … but God showed me that it was not originating from me. This is how they deceive us because we think we are listening to our own self-talk.
An example of this would be having the idea pop into our minds to call someone a horrible name, and then encouraging us to say it out loud to them just to be mean. And then we follow up on that prompting with action.
It would appear as if it were our own “self-talk.” Something that we just decided to say out of the blue, except that it originally came from the dark spirit standing next to us that we can’t see. He is influencing us to do something harmful to someone else. And we listened to it and did it.
The more we listen to these dark spirits, the more influence they gain over us, and over time, it becomes easier for us to do it again the next time.
In the vision that God showed to me, I was walking down a busy street in a very large city that reminded me of something that looked like downtown Chicago or Los Angeles. I watched people going about their normal day. Many were crossing the street at the crosswalks, and others were simply going about pursuing their normal activities. There were hundreds of people everywhere, filling the streets. This city was full of people.
Then God opened my spiritual eyes, and I saw that each person had a dark spirit walking beside them, and they couldn’t see it. There were evil spirits around everyone. I didn’t see anyone who didn’t have some kind of evil spirit trying to influence them. These evil spirits were walking right next to the person that they were assigned to be with. This assignment was from the devil. Some people had more than one dark spirit with them because they were very resistant to Satan’s influence.
In each situation, these dark spirits were doing their best to influence the person with whom they were associated. I will share three examples from the many that I saw.
I saw a younger kid who was riding a skateboard down the street. His dark spirit was sitting on his shoulders with his hands wrapped around this kid. He was putting ideas into his head of ways that he could get into mischief or become a trouble-maker. He made it sound like it was a “fun” idea, and he had this kid’s attention.
I also saw a very well-dressed businessman carrying around a black briefcase. His dark spirit was sitting on the briefcase, giving him ideas for how to swindle his clients out of their money. This dark spirit kept coming back around, putting these thoughts into the man’s head until the man began to dwell on all the money he could obtain through fraud, and over time, he began thinking about how he could do this without being caught.
Another man was encouraged to open his computer and go to a website where he could watch some porn. This dark spirit wanted to get him to view it as much as possible, and every time he would sit at his computer, that thought to watch pornography would pop into his mind from the dark spirit that was next to him. They would watch it together as this dark spirit was always nagging at him to do it.
There were many, many other examples that I saw. I saw these dark spirits everywhere. Each person had some kind of evil spirit working to exert their influence over the person with whom they were with.
God continued to show me several examples so that I could see what was happening in the background in real-time.
Then we went deeper…
God then showed me that over time, some of these people were so influenced by the dark spirits assigned to them that the dark spirits were able to move themselves to the bodies of their human host as if it were their physical body also. I saw a dark spirit completely slip inside its human host. I could see the person and their dark spirit inside their bodies, sharing one body. No longer was it hanging on the outside of their body. These dark spirits had gained access to be inside the body of their person. The person became possessed. These people were no longer trying to listen to their conscious… They had completely given way for these dark spirits to live inside of them because of the choices that they were making.
This introduced something new to the situation. Dark spirits are living inside the person. This changed everything, even what they could do while living inside the human host. This allowed them to not only put thoughts into the person’s head, but also to place “emotions and feelings” in their bodies also. It became a dual influence. And this influence was so much stronger and powerful.
This gave these dark spirits even greater power (influence) over their host victims because these evil spirits had their personal feelings and desires for things being made manifest, all of which were also felt by their human host. This caused difficulty for human to distinguish the difference between the emotional feelings that were coming from the dark spirits as opposed to the feelings and emotions coming from themselves. It was like they were becoming one. And under certain circumstances, this also allowed these devils to take over the body and use it as if it were their own.
Thus, if the dark spirit was depressed, the host would feel depressed. If the dark spirit felt hate, then the host person would feel hate. If the dark spirit was lustful for porn, fame, or riches, then the host person would also feel lustful after porn, fame, and riches. If the dark spirit had an infirmity, then the host person would start to manifest the same infirmity. As the scripture says, “we become the servant of the master that we choose to follow.”
These dark spirits, being inside their host human, were pushing their emotional feelings upon them.
And I woke up…. There were many more things that I saw, of which I will not post here…
At that moment, I understood something for the first time in my life: that perhaps my addictions were not genuinely mine. Second, I knew that I most likely had an evil spirit with me, and that it was probably permanently attached, living within my body, and that I was feeling its feelings and emotions for those things that I felt addicted to.
I immediately began to ask the Lord for more information regarding my status… and my question to God was, if others in my vision had dark spirits attached to them or inside them, then how many evil spirits did I have attached to me or living inside me?”
I fasted, and I prayed. I fasted, and I prayed.
Fasting adds a greater torque to your prayers. I knew this, and so I was determined to do a 3-day fast unto the Lord.
Let’s talk briefly about fasting here:
Fasting helps to bridge the gap between the spiritual and physical worlds. It’s really more of a spiritual discipline than a physical one. When exercised properly, it creates an opening through the earth’s spiritual covering that allows the power of heaven to pour down more freely upon us. Like opening the window blinds in the summer, so extra light can shine in on a sunny day.
Fasting with a pure heart, with the intent of seeking God, allows Him to partner directly with us, giving our prayers greater power and authority to break through spiritual barriers. It speeds up what would under normal conditions take months and even years to overcome.
Fasting can push back the forces of darkness out of entire regions or areas and even change events.
Some spiritual battles cannot be won through prayer alone and must include fasting.
In the New Testament, the disciples asked the Lord why they couldn’t cast out a certain type of devil. (Mark 9:28) To this, the Lord replied that certain types of devils only come out by much ‘prayer and fasting.’
When whole congregations fast together, in mind and purpose, with real intent, it brings even greater power that can shift the atmosphere over entire cities, regions, and even nations.
Fasting, when it is done in humility, with a desire to seek God, and being repentant, brings a powerful dynamic into play.
Noah Fasted
Moses Fasted
Daniel Fasted
Jesus Fasted
We must ask ourselves why fasting is talked about so much in the scriptures, and yet we don’t utilize it or understand it.
We need to bring back that “Biblical” style of fasting. When we fast, our spirit undergoes a type of spiritual upgrade, which creates new pathways inside us to operate in “greater discernment and greater authority” under the name of Jesus.
Fasting is not about convincing God to do something; it’s about positioning ourselves where we partner up with God, tuning into heaven’s frequency, and this adds greater spiritual power to our armor, giving us greater accuracy and greater power to hit our targets harder.
Each day that we fast increases our authority over spiritual warfare. It moves us up in the ranks of spiritual power, and our words spoken in Jesus’ name carry more weight and have a greater impact and a stronger punch, such as the casting out of devils.
God grants the authority because it is his to give. It positions us to carry this greater authority, but the authority itself comes from Jesus.
Fasting breaks and weakens all the dark chains in the spiritual realm. Addictions, Generational curses, and Spiritual oppression, including same-gender attraction. When we exercise our faith in fasting with a pure motive and intent, these chains are broken, and Satan loses the power that he once held over us.
When we exercise a lifetime by fasting often, we build up great reserves of authority in heaven that we can draw upon at any time to strengthen us in times of great trial.
Fasting perfects worship. It makes us more pleasing to God when we consistently engage in it.
And for many of the hard battles that are coming in the last days, fasting will not be optional. 1◆
…Continuing with my original post… Several weeks went by after my first vision, and I pondered it often…
In my personal prayers, my desire was not only to know how these devils got attached to me, but to learn how to get them away from me also. I could feel their feelings as if they were my own; essentially, I felt as if we were sharing my body together.
There were many people with devils in Jesus’ time; it seemed as if it was a common occurrence to find him always casting some type of devil out of them. We have so many scripture references of Him casting them out.
Today is just like the times of old, except people don’t want to acknowledge the possibility that they might be possessed by a devil. Yet, it’s probably more common today than we realize.
So I put forth my faith and courage, and I sought the Lord diligently through both prayer and fasting, for Him to help me. He has all the power to heal and restore. For it is given unto Him to set at liberty those who are bruised. Luke 4:18.
I believe that addictions come from these dark spirits that hold great power over those to whom they are attached. Addiction isn’t just a physical issue, it’s a devil issue. (Eph. 6:12, For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world…)
After many weeks, the Lord came and showed me another vision…
Second Vision:
In this vision, I saw myself as if I were looking at everything from a third-party perspective. Looking down at myself, I saw my (spirit) self, and I was inside this beautiful little house (which I was told represented my physical body). It had a very high-pitched ceiling at its center and a lot of beautiful windows across the front that let in a lot of light. It was a nice, tidy little place.
I then found myself looking around to see all the things around me. And being curious, I began to look at my surroundings. It was at that moment that I noticed 4 other dark spirits were living with me in my house. They appeared and looked just like me. They were human-like, with a head, arms, and 2 legs. It was as if I had invited 4 individuals over to visit me, but instead of just visiting, they were living there too. 1-2-3-4 devils.
Two of them were so tall that their heads nearly reached the top of the 12-foot-high pitched ceiling, and I had to look way up to see their faces. They appeared daunting and powerful. In my spirit, I was told that the height of the first two dark spirits was meant to represent the influence they held over me. They were the ringleaders. These two seemed to be in control of everything. They were ruling over me by manipulating my feelings and emotions.
The lesser two were more like mischief makers who found it fun to do daring things, and they were subservient to the two taller ones, who held the greater influence.
This, then, was the answer to my original question that I put before the Lord, “How many dark spirits did I have?” The Lord was showing me firsthand that I had 4 dark spirits (devils) within my body. I had let them in, and they had been there for some time.
As the impact of what I was seeing began to settle in, it terrified me, and I began to freak out. Who were these strangers? I thought? What were they doing here in my house (body) uninvited? I didn’t remember ever inviting them in… but somehow I had.
Immediately, my instinct was to hide, to get away from these strangers… So I began to look around to find a place to hide, but couldn’t find one. Therefore, I decided that I wanted to just get out, and I began looking for the front door or a window, anything I could find where I could exit the place. The only problem was that I couldn’t just leave my own body… This was the state that I found myself in, and I began to panic.
In my mind, I wasn’t going to stay in that body with all these strangers that I did not know trying to control me! I was determined to get out…
Then, off in the distance, walking towards me, Jesus appeared. He was wearing a white robe with a red sash. As he came into view, I saw Him move his arm from the right to the left as if he were pushing something aside.
Instantly, everything changed. I was now inside my little house and all those devils were forced outside.
My fear was completely gone, replaced with peace. I realized that I was the only one in my house and that Jesus had come to set things right. I could see the devils outside through my window, and Jesus said, “Lock your doors and windows,” which I promptly did. When I look back at this statement it makes we think of how they entered into my house in the first place… We will discuss this later.
No sooner had I done so than I saw a head pop up in front of the main window of my house with a look of “What just happened?” A surprised look on their faces at where they had found themselves. Then I heard a knock at my door.
So I went and looked through the peephole embedded in the door, and there they all were, all four dark spirits (devils) standing at my front door. And they spoke to me, saying, “We want to come back in. Open the door so we can get back in?” This reminds me of the story of the three little pigs when the wolf came to the door and said, “Let me come in”.
This statement really surprised me. The gall of those devils that were just cast out had the nerve to come right back, literally within seconds of being cast out, and ask that I let them back in! I hadn’t even had time to breathe yet, and here they were, determined to get back in. I said to them, “No, I am not letting you back in. You have no authority over my house; I own the deed to it, and I am not letting you back in.” To this, they appeared perplexed, and seeing that they couldn’t just come back in, they left. I felt relieved…
Jesus then said to me, “They will be back in three days.” I replied in confidence and with peace in my heart, “OK.” And I fell back asleep.
From that moment, I began to count the days on my calendar, knowing that they would be back in the three days that the Lord had told me…
When the third night came, I remember thinking before I went to bed, “ok, this is the third night. We will see what happens.” And not knowing what to expect, I laid down on my bed and fell asleep. I was completely at peace without any fear, and I had no idea what was going to happen.
Sometime in the wee hours of the morning, I was awakened by two dark spirits. What was interesting was that I knew that they were both male and that they were the two mischief makers of the 4. This was the first time I realized that these spirits actually had a gender while in spirit, without having a body. They descended upon me with such force that they really pushed my body deep down into my mattress. This was not a vision this time. I had uninvited guests appearing in my bedroom who were trying to force their way back inside my physical body. They were just going to come into my body whether I liked it or not!
I could read their thoughts as easily as I could my own, and I knew that they intended to force their way back into my body since I wasn’t going to just let them come in, and they were trying to dive bomb into me. Accept, they bounced and were thrown back. Seeing that this first attempt was unsuccessful, they then tried to grab me, still trying to force their way back in.
I felt like I was wrestling with them in a wrestling match, two-on-one. I saw and felt arms and legs as we wrestled. It felt like a wrestling match. I did everything that I could to push them off me. And because I could read their thoughts, I again uttered, “I am not letting you in! This is my body, not yours, and you don’t have my permission to enter.”
You see, God created the house; he was the builder of it, and I was given the deed to it, and Jesus had stepped in to enforce the contract of who was the rightful holder of the deed. I was, and they were not being cast out.
After some time, being unsuccessful, they left me, and I lay back down and slept.
Shortly after I had fallen asleep, I was again awakened, but this time all four of the dark spirits were present. They had come in and surrounded my bed. Immediately, my spirit woke up, and in my spirit, I sat up while I could still see that my body was lying flat on the bed. My spirit legs were still in my physical body, but my spirit’s upper body was sitting up out of my body, and I was looking around my room.
At this point, seeing that I was awakened and sitting upright, all 4 devils scattered around my room. One of them, whom I call the main ring leader, moved just enough to sit down on my office chair that was right next to my bed.
I could see that she was female, and I could see her as clear as day, and I can still describe her perfectly. Her hair was shoulder-length and well-kept. She was a brunette. She was very stately. She wore what I would consider a professional business suit that you would see worn by a woman CEO or corporate president, and she had an air about her as one who had authority.
She was arrogant, haughty, and defiant, and I could tell that things were not working out the way that she wanted them to. Still thinking that I really couldn’t see her, she stood still and said nothing, but looked at me with a smirk on her face.
We must have been no more than about 2 feet apart from each other. I looked right at her, but she said nothing.
So, I took the lead, and I said right to her, “You know that I can see you.” She remained silent. So, I again repeated myself, “You know that I can see you,” and I stared her right into her eyes. She stood up. I think she realized that she wasn’t invisible to me anymore, so to my comment, she replied in a snotty voice, “Oh really?” as if what I had said meant nothing…. She cocked her head slightly as she spoke.
Being in the spirit, I could read her thoughts, so she didn’t need to say anything to me. I simply answered her because I already knew her intent, and I said, “I know that you are coming back because you want to get back into my body. This is my body, and ‘You DO NOT’ (I emphasized those two words with greater inflection in my voice) have my permission to come back in.” I was very specific with my choice of words.
Since Jesus had cast them all out and put me back in control, I had the final say because this was my personal property that God had deeded over to me, not theirs. I owned the deed, and they could not come back in without my permission, and I wasn’t giving it.
She sat back down in my chair and looked at me. I knew that she wanted to regain entrance into my body. That she was desperate to control me again, we both knew it. But before she could answer, I again repeated, “That she did not have my permission to come back into my body, and there was nothing she could do about it.” She knew it, and so did I.
When I think back on this experience, I was not scared at all, for I had already seen them in my vision earlier and I knew who they were and I knew what they wanted, and I also knew that I had the final say, not them, and if they were to get back into my body it would only be by my consent. They were powerless to just enter, and I wasn’t giving up that permission.
At this point, the last of the 4 dark spirits came into the room and she stood behind the brunette. She, too, was a female spirit, and I could see that she had long hair that ran down her shoulder and off her back. She was blonde, but I couldn’t see her facial features as she wouldn’t let me see her. She remained standing close behind the brunette, hiding her face if it were from my view.
I then realized that both of these two females were the tall spirits that Jesus had shown to me, who were standing over 12 feet in height, representing how much power and control they had over me in the first vision. They were the ringleaders of the 4.
This blonde; She was the clever one, the one who knew how to negotiate. She wasn’t haughty and stuck up as the brunette had been; she was very skilled in her speech and began to negotiate. She got right to the point.
She said to me, “What do you want from us so that we can, in return, re-enter?” I found this question very curious. She was very straightforward in her asking. There was no misunderstanding nor beating around the bush with her. “What do you want from ‘US:” was her question, as if she had the power to deliver something to me in return.
I answered back that I didn’t want anything from her or anything from any of them as a whole, as they had nothing of value that they could offer me.
Then came the most interesting response that I would have never guessed. She said to me, “Do you want women? ‘Because we could supply you with all the women that you could possibly want.” I again said “no,” that I wasn’t interested in that type of woman. I wasn’t looking for concubines of adulterous women.
She continued… “Then what do you want from us? …. She paused…
Then she said, “Do you want ‘Fame?’ Because we could make you extremely famous.”
I said nothing back to her. Fame wasn’t something that appealed to me. Fame is always something that is here today and gone tomorrow. It is fleeting and therefore of no worth or value.
There was another long pause…
Hearing no answer, she continued… “Do you want money? Because ‘We’ could get you all the money you could ever want.” I knew that she was referring to multi-millions. As money is satans own wheelhouse, something that he likes to control, I knew that she could deliver, but what good is millions when after this life you can’t take it with you. And being something from satan, I didn’t want that hanging over my head in the next life.
After this third offer, I again said, “No,” and I explained that everything that she was offering me was “earthly” and would “only last until my life on earth was over.” I said that I wanted eternal things. Things that would last for eternity, and that wasn’t something that they could offer me; that only God could give.
At that point, we all stared at each other, and they could see that I wasn’t even slightly interested in any of their offers.
The conversation was over. The blond female began to cover them all from the ground up with a shrouding dark mist that had a slight sparkle to it so that I could no longer see them, and then, they were gone. I felt like the blonde one was a witch.
This experience brought up many answers and many more questions.
One of the main things that came from this experience was that I could see that these spirits were just like everyone else. Even dark spirits were both male and female. They didn’t have a body of their own, and so they wanted to steal and use mine.
They were willing to offer me money or fame and lots of women, which makes me wonder if other musicians/actors/billionaires are offered the same in exchange for devils to possess their bodies, because we already know that “the money” is Satan’s wheelhouse.
It is one of the things that he uses to entice men to do his bidding. To make them rich, because they desire money more than they desire the things of God?
And since these devils do not have bodies of flesh and blood, the only way they can experience the power of pleasure that comes from having sex is to feel it through other people’s bodies that they are living in. They want to feel that feeling and pleasure. It’s something that they desperately want and can never have because they were never given a physical body of their own. They want to live vicariously through us?
It also seemed to me that when we don’t follow God, but instead do the evil that these devils are enticing us to do, it opens us up so that they can come inside our bodies, slipping inthrough an open window, and sometimes we just let themin intentionally through our opening up the main door. Essentially, we are opening things up and inviting them into our bodies by not living a righteous life. Instead, we listen to the enticing of devils, which over time gives them access to get inside us.
It’s like the punishment for disobeying God is that we open ourselves up to getting a devil (or evil spirit) inside of us. And if we would only follow God, the devils would have no power or influence over us, being locked out permanently from living within us and possessing us.
We own the birthright to our own house (our bodies) through Jesus, but if we follow the evil one, then we are consenting to have them become our master, and they come in and take control.
(About 4 years after this had occurred, while I was working as an assistant manager at a retail store, I had a young man come up to me out of the blue that I did not know, and ask me if I could sing. I thought that it was an odd question to ask a complete stranger, but I answered that I could, but needed some practice. He said that wasn’t a problem, and he then said that they were forming a new band and wanted to know if I was interested in being a part of it.
Immediately, my mind went back to when the blond devil asked me if I wanted “fame.” And that she could make me famous. Quickly, I replied that I was not interested, to which he seemed disappointed, but went his way.)